I will go to the hospital
and have a CT scan
of my colon.
I have not slept since
3:30 last night,
and I am of course
But I have no other choise,
because I have to go to the
"loo" almost all the time,
right now about
every five minutes...
Of course, I think it is good that
I will be examined thoroughly tomorrow,
but I can not say that I look forward to it,
partly because it will feel uncomfortable,
but also because I am worried and nervous
that they will find something
"dangerous" in my stomach...
I have had problems with
my stomach almost my entire life,
but at the end of last year it became
so bad that I could not stand it anymore.
I just want to find out
it is that is wrong,
and what can be done about it.
Even if it would mean that I will
end up having a colostomy bag on my stomach,
it is still better than feeling like I do now.
So please send me
some positive energy,
because I really need it!