The Feeling Sorry For Myself Post...

Tomorrow morning,

 I will go to the hospital

 and have a CT scan 

of my colon.

I have not slept since

 3:30 last night,

 and I am of course 

completely exhausted...

 But I have no other choise,

 because I have to go to the 

"loo" almost all the time,

 right now about 

every five minutes...

Of course, I think it is good that

 I will be examined thoroughly tomorrow,

 but I can not say that I look forward to it, 

partly because it will feel uncomfortable,

 but also because I am worried and nervous 

that they will find something 

"dangerous" in my stomach...

I have had problems with 

my stomach almost my entire life, 

but at the end of last year it became 

so bad that I could not stand it anymore.

I just want to find out 

WHAT 

it is that is wrong, 

and what can be done about it.

Even if it would mean that I will 

end up having a colostomy bag on my stomach,

it is still better than feeling like I do now.

So please send me 

some positive energy, 

because I really need it!

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Jenny Minerva